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Sunday, 08 November 2009

  • "Love" letter or something like that

    Dear love,

    I have a question.  Are you making me unstable mentally, emotionally, and physically?
    Are you this poison inside me that I'm allowing to infect and corrupt my system?  Are you a punishment from a divine power?  Before I go naming you as the reason for my spiraling journey to rock bottom, I need to know.  Are you the cause of it?  I'm not sure, all I can say is my feelings are going against me causing me to not think with my head.  My common sense is here with me, but it's not getting through.  Are you the filter? Is it something else?  For two weeks, I haven't "felt" like doing this or I "felt" like doing that. 

    I don't understand what is going on.  I feel that I am being guided by my feelings/mood and they aren't leading in a good direction, yet I fail to oppose their guidance (lead).  Are you responsible for this, love?  I have begun to wonder if maybe if it is just a desire for something else that is distracting me from my work.  I don't feel smitten.  Oh man, I am not sure what's going on with me.  I care, however, I don't feel like it.  I guess it could be partly blamed on laziness, but it's not just that.  Other interests are just being pushed ahead of the academics is all.

    I don't believe you are the reason for my feelings becoming so dominant over me.  However, you are a catalyst.  So you are partially to blame.  *sigh* So confusing you are.  I'm gonna sleep on this on the problem some more and see what comes up.

    Sincerely,
    Anonymous
    Currently
    Away From The Sun
    By 3 Doors Down
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Wednesday, 04 November 2009

  • Thoughts From Tuesday Afternoon

    Today was a slightly interesting day but a day full of thinking of the future.

    I've been slacking terribly this semester and that is unlike me.

    Not to mention I'm late to classes that start at 11:30am.  >.>
    I'm staying later than ever (due to my mother not being home).

    *gathering thoughts*

    I'm slacking in math by not doing homework and I wasn't going to class for a good 2 to 4 weeks.
    Prior to that, I was going to class once a week (even though it met twice a week).

    My African American studies class (Problems in the Black community a.k.a. Community Problems)(it meets my sociology requirement), I have been late to before, but I've been regularly late for awhile now and caring very little about it.  We'll see if I get there on time or early today.

    So in math class today, I was thinking what to do if I fail math (which seems very likely).  My gpa will suffer tremendously, though I hope it can still get me to spring semester.  I also thought about how I will be next semester.  If I'm slacking this hard now, oh my goodness.  Compared to last semester (Spring 09), I didn't really slack off.  I did what I was suppose to do and only suffered an incomplete for 1 class. 

    I also hope my financial aid doesn't ditch me before Spring semester. 
    I'm hoping to iron out my mistakes for the African American studies class, b/c I am already down a bad road for math and there's no detour.


Thursday, 29 October 2009

Friday, 23 October 2009

  • I miss AngryBLACKboy

    Ever since I deleted by first xanga page.
    I miss it more and more and think about it often.
    When I went to shut it down, I thought I was ready to let it go and stick with what I had here.  I have reviewed the sites old entries frequently and I was tired of it getting traffic and no responses.  I didn't want to make it private b/c I wanted to be able to access it w/o having to sign in (b/c I'm lazy sometimes). 

    Now I want to go back through the history of angryblackboy and read the old entries, the old memories and comments and ... I don't know.  I think it is b/c it held so much more than this one.
    I don't know exactly what suddenly made this site so popular.  I was very low key with this site and didn't visit many people.  I wasn't out searching for many new user under this name. 

    I don't know...I just enjoyed going down memory lane and DRW just ain't providing that fulfillment anymore.



Sunday, 18 October 2009

  • Revised

    Reach for the stars
    Heard that one before?

    With motivation in recession
    Encouragement broken,
    The will to reach for success
    is trapped under the rock of depression,
    in a deep lake of doubt
    Causing the light bulb labeled hope
    to flicker.

    Making progress crawl, luck sour, and
    opportunity's window hard to open

    So if you want change, go break a dollar

    And someday, the economic
    cement will set.

    Feedback please?




About Me

  • Hi! I'm 20, living in Brooklyn. I like to write as long as I'm in the mood for it. I like playing Dance Dance Revolution and other games. I go to school full time (currently sort of searching for work). I'm on most social networks cause real life socializing is a pain in the butt. I've been a xanga user for six years, but had this account for five. Come and read and leave a comment(if you wish).

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  • vegetasupersayin
    Havent talked to you in about a year! Hello!
  • princeichigo
    same to you.
  • RDRRain23
    http://into-the-lens.xanga.com/703341297/writers-block---the-musical/?page=1&jump=1488449549&leftcmt=1#1488449549an upbeat poem, that i liked, that i hope will be a good read for you.
  • DRWispureofheart
    @RDRRain23 - Thanks, I'm trying.
  • RDRRain23
    hey i read your blog about dark thinking and i know we all have those days, but you have to get your anger out and then keep your head up. Keep moving forward. peace
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