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    • Name: Darnell
    • Location: New York City, New York, United States
    • Birthday: 3/20/1989
    • Gender: Male
    • Member Since: 9/16/2004
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Wednesday, 25 January 2012

  • It's hard to blog/What to do with this thing?

    It's so hard to write on xanga now b/c I don't blog for myself alone.

    I have a fucking journal for that and half the time I don't even want to write

    for myself.  This goddamn thing doesn't format anything I type properly

    and I have going through this thing and having to edit it, put in spaces, remove

    spaces where they shouldn't be and then I can't switch back and forth from 

    double space to single space freely.  I have a habit of wanting to hit the enter button

    now.

     

    Blogging sucks and I feel like writing things for others to read.  Because nobody was reading my previous site, I shut it down and decided to focus on this one since I got into writing for myself on here a little more.  I was out searching for new  blogs to read as oppose to new readers.  The friends I had and the people that keep commenting whenever they visited my blog were my readers.  The real friends I had here are not here and I don't really write a damn thing anymore worth sharing or if I do, I post it on facebook.  Since nobody reads anything I've returned to writing in my journal.  Because I stopped reading other's blogs I've stopped frequently this site.  I don't hate xanga.  I just have drifted away from it and every time and again, I drift back to see who write something, who commented, and who I need to reply to (if any).  Xanga is boring to me not only because I'm not reading or nobody else is reading, but b/c I have nothing to entertain anyone anymore, I no longer have the patience like I use to. I don't have any connection with this site anymore.  It isn't useful for me.  The only reason I have shut it down is b/c I regret shutting down the last site.  I haven't ignored this site because I always remember it at some point and want to know if my blog has gotten any views since the last update.  

    I rather not be a whiny bitch on the internet.  I will keep it b/c I may want to upload more music and videos.  

Thursday, 12 January 2012

  • How has Xanga changed or impacted your life?

    Xanga was great place to be, it my place to roam on the internet when I was still new to computers and even more new to the internet.

    All I have a problem with is the formatting but other than that, xanga has been lately a boring place (i daresay).

    I wish xanga kept a lot of it's old appeal along with it's new improvements.  Since the updates and

    face lifts, xanga isn't the same.  It isn't better, just the opposite.  It isn't as bad as facebook though

    so that is good.  I always gotta have these mental feelings or whatever so late at night b/c this

    is the only time I feel like trying to commit myself to writing them down.  No matter what else

    may have my attention or I want to give my attention to.  Readers n writers alike came to xanga

    to share ideas and read other's work or thoughts.  Then again some came here b/c of friends, like me.

    Xanga just offered those of us that did to view people's blogs outside of friends.   I think there is a finger to

    be pointed at someone or something, but I don't know.

    It just seems weird how this quiet site had a lot of users, where everyone could get friendly and all

    disputes or whatever were pretty private.  Now everything is on display, there r xangacelebs and 

    people who write non-stop and always get comments by the hundreds.  And they don't have loyal readers

    or anything, just a lot of people.

    Xanga use to be a place to make friends, now ... I am foggy on what xanga is anymore.

    It's just thing that I have that I neglect due to my lack of interest in writing.  I can't really focus

    and read anymore, so I don't take much time to read anymore.

    The reply system is cool (although you don't have to visit the user you reply to blog in

    return).  

       In the past, xanga's impact was, I had found a great outlet for whatever. Just come and write it down

    say what I want, look at what  I want and try to make friends.  Xanga is just boring now and I don't return to it

    often b/c it doesn't hold my attention like facebook fails to do.  Not mentioned, my friends abandon this n now I've neglected

    facebook b/c it bores me not b/c I found a replacement.  

    Whatever though.

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Wednesday, 04 January 2012

Sunday, 11 December 2011

  • Mental mess

    I take my life a day at a time, but

    I always feel that little bit of force coming from me.

    I don't what it is b/c my mind be flashing a bunch of people,

    thoughts, concerns n yes, some regrets. Not that they will trouble

    if I was to meet my end. (Only my mom would come to mind at a time

    like that).

    I say it is the cold that brings out these unexplained frustrations, increase

    my agitations, and make little (out of my control) things more bothersome.

    Neglect, selfishness, *Shrugs* 

    I don't have time for myself (I literally don't have time set aside for myself).

    Every bit of time I spend on myself I feel like I am stealing. Unless I'm at work, then

    I don't feel that way.

    At work, I feel like I earn my "me" time.

    Winter always makes me thing (and i tend to focus on sad or negative things) due to

    frustration or loneliness. 

    I tell myself I'll be alright just to break my concentration from the negative.

    Belief isn't natural now-a-days, you always got to put in work.

    work is depressing and constant.  (A person always has to be constantly working and it 

    gets very depressing when you stop and think about how one always has to work to get things done

    but doing nothing can easily make things a mess).  It takes a lot of work to make things right, but so

    little effort to ruin everything. 

    where is the motivation? I'm not searching for it.  Motivation n inspiration seem to be alike and have to come

    to you.

    >>I can't think much because it just frustrates me and I just keep thinking and I have no answers and it creates nothing.<<

Wednesday, 07 December 2011

  • Ending Soon


    We are in the final month of 2011, what are you looking forward to in the year 2012?

    I'm bored. I don't ever wanna go to work on Wednesday, but I have no choice.  Now that Tuesday is hours in the past I will be going to work

    Till Sunday. What a miserable existence. So...2012 is coming. Eh. Can't wait till I get my vacation hours. I am pessimistic, but I'm not

    Looking forward to much next year. I predict/grimace that it'll be the same old thing. So what is there to say? 2011 was worse than

    a bag of jelly beans, salty than a bucket of mixed salted nuts, sourer than a lemon. Every month flopped back and forth between sweet n sour,

    every week was either good or very bad. Every day was either stressful or laid back. People came and gone a lot and there was a lot of pain,

    sorrow, annoyances, and frustration. Pursuing happiness became mundane. Looking for friends became annoying and boring. People got

    worse and I got more anti-social going so far as to stay isolated at home when I could.

    I literally live n take each day as it comes. Not making any solid plans for tomorrow. Something is always bound to threaten any plans made.

    I am always bound to be late or unable to reach word from people. Not much entertains me anymore, but I'm looking to find something new

    in the things I use to do. I have become lazier upon receiving employment. I realized I don't like to work. I really, really detest people.

    I have nothing to look forward, for better or worse. I small hopes for the presents, can't vision the future. The lies of the world have shaped

    my pessimistic view very well.

    I'm a little bored, lazy, unmotivated, and not inspired. Nothing serious. Just taking each day one at a time, hour by hour. Not gonna force myself to do

    a lot or whatever. I realize it isn't worth it sometimes. I open up as I please verbally b/c everyone already knows or will find out eventually.

    I am not all that comfortable with myself, but I am more okay with me than I was when the year started. Outside of my life, I still look forward to nothing

    next year. I am amazed as always how fast the years go by when a month or a week feels like an eternity.

    So long 2011, you'll be over soon enough.

       

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About Me

  • Hi! I'm 22, living in Brooklyn. I like to write as long as I'm in the mood for it. I like playing Dance Dance Revolution and other games. I go to school full time (currently sort of searching for work). I'm on most social networks cause real life socializing is a pain in the butt. I've been a xanga user for eight years, but had this account for seven. Come and read and leave a comment(I'd appreciate it).

Chatboard (6)

  • vegetasupersayin
    Havent talked to you in about a year! Hello!
  • princeichigo
    same to you.
  • RDRRain23
    http://into-the-lens.xanga.com/703341297/writers-block---the-musical/?page=1&jump=1488449549&leftcmt=1#1488449549an upbeat poem, that i liked, that i hope will be a good read for you.
  • DRWispureofheart
    @RDRRain23 - Thanks, I'm trying.
  • RDRRain23
    hey i read your blog about dark thinking and i know we all have those days, but you have to get your anger out and then keep your head up. Keep moving forward. peace
  • jamey007
    hi thanks for adding me :)

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